i lost the same burden i got back today. not the first time. i want to keep it.

keep my heart still. keep it still.

i have a burden. you set me up with guitar when i was totally not musically inclined. i mean totally. you enabled my ability. now i do not want to feed my pride, but help me to build up more skills. theory, rythm, metronome me! i just want to serve, i just want to minister.

school! has to be won! has to be! you stirred the buden before, i lost it before, you're stirring it again!

but the smallest of things should mean the biggest to myself. my life, my every minute spent. these ought to be built on. how. =/

i want to grow. please? 

11:28 PM